april 26, 2002 -

lisa left eye lopez died in a car crash yesterday.. tlc's oooh on the tlc tip was one of my first ceedees.. oh a lighter note.. might see radio 4 tonight or go to the rapture and black dice show in brooklyn.. do you feel like dancing.. and now i am off to my psychotherapy class where we will discuss the relationship between therapist and client and how important it is.. my professor speaks like a buddha and he is allknowing when it comes to questions obstacles or advice.. gotta love a texan..
this song didnt want to leave my head last night..

Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold
I can't just carry on this way
And every time I turn away
Lose another blind game

The idea of perfection holds me
Suddenly I see you change
Everything at once the same

But the mountain never moves
Rape me like a child
Christened in blood
Painted like an unknown saint
There's nothing left but hope

Your voice is dead
And old
And always empty

Trust in me through closing years
Perfect moments wait
If only we could stay
Please say the right words
Or cry like the stone white clown
And stand
Lost forever in a happy crowd

No one lifts their hands
No one lifts their eyes
Justifies with empty words
The party just gets better and better

I went away alone
With nothing left
But faith