May 11, 2003 -

utter madness decends for a few weeks.. finals crazy no sleep study for dayz for what i ask? dreams made real with the loss of electricity and lust.. i mean gas.. no hot water or electric in my apartment for the last two dayz and rest of the month, who gives a fuck, i can be amish for a few weeks..

saw some good bands at a basement show friday night.. kiss my deadly who are from canada.. they play post-rock mbv wall of noise stuff that makes my tummy smile and legs quiver.. also that night was aim of conrad, who i am having doubts about of late.. before the show the lead singer/guitist was outside shouting bout this girl he had "in the bag" and was going to "fuck so hard" kinda turned my off.. then he told us the second song was about nova scotia pussy.. ok strike two.. finally i buy their t-shirt and latest 7" only to find the lyrics talking about puncture wounds bleeding and how bad she wants action.. so now i am upset and pissed off that i supported this machismo attitude that is so prevelant these dayz in the mainstream.. no more rantz.. two more finals to go go go... push them away..